Doesn’t anyone understand i don’t want to fucking talk about it anymore, i don’t want to talk at all anymore, i’m done talking. I wan’t my fucking boyfriend back, and that’s not going to happen it’s very obvious. I don’t know why everyone keeps pressing on it but i can’t fucking take it anymore. It fucking hurts. More than anything i have ever felt before in my life. I just want it to be over. Fucking over.
I fuck up everything with my poor me attitude and expectation that everyone is going to fix my problems for me, and i hate myself for it. It ends tonight.
My boyfriend isnt answering me so i guess i am going to go to his house, even though i dont know if he is even there, but oh well? we will see what happens ._.
I’m so done with this chapter in my life. Im either an emotional wreck or a numb lifeless acting human being. I hate everything and love it at the same time. There are only a very very small amount of things that are even keeping me here to this day. I am so tired of this though. So tired of feeling this. I want it to end. I want to be normal. I am so tired of all of this fucking shit.
Just done with fucking everyone. I wont be going on facebook for quite sometime. I’ve decided that if people want to fucking talk to me than they can actually put a fucking effort into it. Prove to me that they actually give a fuck, because right now i am feeling VERY insignificant to those i should be significant to.
I feel so fat and gross. Oddly shaped. Tight clothes make me look ten times bigger and loose clothes do too. I was feeling good, wanted to go outside and take pictures and felt pretty and okay with myself, and then my family tears me down and shits all over everything. I’ll never be one of the pretty girls.
